If you walk past my office, you might see many different things. You might notice my ombre pink tassel banner hanging on my wall. You could possibly notice my pictures taped to my wall or the faux peony bouquet sitting on my desk. Maybe your eyes will be drawn to my gold desk items. Your eyes probably see the beige walls, wood desk, and everything that looks like a typical office. However, I see something else.
When I walk into my office, I see God’s promises. As I turn on my light, sit down my purse, and look around…I see answered prayers. Every piece of office décor, every supply are all reminds of God’s goodness and His timing.
If you’ve been around W&W for a while, you’ll know that I have been in a season of waiting for a long time. You always think that once you get your degree, you will immediately step into your perfect, dream job. *sorry to pop your bubble, but that rarely happens* You just assume once you do your studying the next step will be easy, and you’ll settle into a job. I, however, did not have that experience and earched for about 2 years for a full-time job. I was blogging, nannying, and doing photography in the meantime. But I was incredibly impatient.
What I didn’t realize then is that I would need to basically pack up our whole house myself and get my family moved when my dad died suddenly. If I had had a job in 2018 when we lost my dad, our lives would have been even harder (which is hard to imagine). What God eventually revealed to me in my long search for my “perfect job” is that there was a specific reason I hadn’t found one yet. His plan was for me to do other things with my life during these last 5 years.
Even though those 5 years were nothing that I had planned for my life, I understand why each step has happened. I was able to spend a lot of time with my sweet little “godchildren,” grow my blog and photography business and help my family with a lot of the boring things of dealing with loss. I honestly don’t know if I could have kept a job after losing my dad. My anxiety was out of control and I needed to be home. Looking back, I see why God had me where I was. I didn’t like it then, I’ll be honest. Telling someone you don’t have a full-time job as a twenty-something college graduate is painful, I’ll admit it.
And when it became God’s time for me to get a full-time, out-of-the-house job, He supplied the perfect one. For my safety and privacy, I don’t share where I work on my blog but let me just tell you….it’s truly the perfect job for me. If there was ever a perfect job I would have created for myself, this job is pretty close to it. So when I walk into my office, I see God’s promises coming to fruition. I see His timing once again being the best thing for my life. How many times did I pray for a job? How many times did I pray for my own office? While I’ve done work since graduation, it wasn’t your typical 9-5 full-time God.
Every time I walk into my office I can’t help but be thankful. God is good. Even in the waiting, even in the pain…HE IS GOOD. So many times I told myself that but didn’t truly hold onto that. Seasons of waiting, grief, hardship…they can all feel never-ending sometimes, but I promise His promises are true. He will walk every minute with you and in HIS timing you will see those prayers answered (even if it’s not the way “we” think they should be answered).
I wanted to share this post with you because there are actually many of my readers that have been praying and walking with me in these seasons of waiting. You’ve supported my blog and freelance career when I couldn’t do a full-time job. You’ve walked with me through grief and brokenness. So I wanted to share this amazing promise God has fulfilled in HIS timing.
If there is anything I could tell you, friends, who are still in the waiting season it would be this- God is faithful. He truly is. Your prayers might not be answered when and how you want, but He is faithful. He keeps His promises and His timing is truly better than what we could want. No matter how hard this season feels, God is walking with you every moment. One day, you’ll look around and see God’s promises being fulfilled when you are trusting and following Him.